June 17th, 2009

Three weeks had passed working. It was fun. The job suits me as what I need to do most of the time is to sit in front of the computer and think, and typing some source codes. Colleagues were nice although I'm the only Indonesian in the company. And yeah! next week we had a session of paint ball on Saturday meant for team building! =)

Recent musings.. I like to muse about human beings lately. It's been quite long that I mused about dead principles and theories, etc. Now i'm more into human beings. How difficult it is to deal with human beings, and how difficult it is to judge them I must say. A principle that always stick in my head is that we never know the other human beings motivations. They are invisible! We only know their visible manifestations. How difficult it is to judge another human being as it requires us to be very certain, (which won't reach a 100% certainty), that he/she has the wrong motivation. Another obstacle is with ourselves. It is also very difficult if we are to judge him/her, having our conscience clear and knowing that we are purely rebuking / judging him/her fairly and not out of bias.

Next, there is another major obstacle, that is, human beings are not perfectly consistent! Even the careful ones might not be consistent. Thus, how can we judge others of bad things, lets take an example, of hypocrisy. We don't know other people's inner struggles when they don't do what they preach. How do we judge? Of course we might say 'well we see their performance in the long run'. And there it is.. the line is drawn arbitrarily, till we feel that it is right to judge, till we cross our own tolerance..

And yes.. human inconsistencies can produce a lot of problems. Thus, judging oneself of not being caring/loving is also difficult. For with inconsistency/weakness, love is not just a matter of do and don'ts. It is also a matter of can / can'ts. Again, how do we make decisions?

Hm.. yea perhaps I'm a principle freak, I want to find what underlies beneath people's thought and see the structures. And that's why i'm also excited about my job. In some sense it can trigger some thoughts.. about what makes a good software / system. Software design has some connection with formal logic I believe, which contains so much mysteries, and I still think its a good point to work on which hopefully can reveal the answer to some mysteries..