when i can't sing, i dance. when i can't dance, i sing.

It's hard to see the fear inside
As I walk away from you
And distance overcomes the miles
As slowly I pull through
And I cannot reach the world today
Cuz I'm suffering from you
And the more I think, the more I cry
As I walk away from you

[Chorus:]
I'm two steps away
From loneliness
I'm awake
From the mess we made
I'm alive
And I'm feeling incomplete

I don't understand my life
Or the version that chose you
And the warring hearts and winter came
Now there's nothing left to do
And I cannot reach the world today
Cuz I'm suffering from two
And the more I think, the more we die
As I walk away from you

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away
I'm two steps away

Two steps away
Two steps away
From loneliness
I'm awake
From the mess we made
I'm alive

Two steps away
Two steps away
Two steps away

i think i'll have to abandon this blog and start a new secluded one. that one will be my hideout.

something inspired me today...read this as taken from the Q&A with the female laureates quartet. FYI, Elizabeth Blackburn is a laureate in physiology while Ada Yonath is in chemistry:

Q: Although their presence has grown steadily for the past 3 decades, women hoping for a career in science still face many obstacles. What are the two or three most important steps that need to be taken right now to increase the number of women going into science and to improve conditions for those already in the field?

Elizabeth Blackburn: The big bottleneck in terms of women's advancement—and I'm speaking about biological sciences—is the transition from postdoctoral research to positions in academic or research-intensive institutions. And so the question is, ‘How do you give people tools to deal with this?’ One very practical thing I've seen at my institution—and I know it's not unique—is having the ability for postdoctoral fellows to attend laboratory leadership courses. They can be as little as 1 week. They don't waste a lot of time, and I've seen them be very effective.

Ada Yonath: Elizabeth talked about a very important stage in the development of a scientist, a man or woman. But I would like to refer to the steps before that. Although girls and young women are taking classes in the life sciences and chemistry, only a few of them make it to the next and the next and the next step. And this is maybe because there is not enough effort made in making them appreciate science and love science and develop their scientific curiosity. I think ... maybe it is because we, the established scientists, don't interact with the youth enough. When I talk to them, they say, ‘Yeah, I want to study this because I want to be afterwards a lab assistant or a research helper.’ Very few say, ‘Because I want to solve a problem that interests me.’

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

when is this infatuation going to stop?

i have this strong feeling i'm going to stay single for a few years from now. the free time better be used for good. i don't mind getting to know people, but to get attached again i probably have to think thrice.

ever wonder what would it be like if dance music had "nice" lyrics? as in not promoting sensuality, violence, and the like?